Mea Gulpa, Mea Gulpa, Mea Maximum Gulpa

2008-07-02T09:09:00.001-07:00

There's so much I want and need to say about the changes I've put myself through over the past 5 years, that it’s impossible to know where to begin.

So I'll start simply by thanking God for the most important change of all: granting me (or, more likely, allowing me to summon, through my own desperate desire) the powers of mind, courage, and imagination to discover and do what I’ve both discovered and done: Become myself, at long last.

By sucking dozens (or hundreds — I’ve lost count) of other men’s penises, and through riding other men’s hard cocks to the true sexual destination of my life: Fort Dix.

The actual content of my discovery and deeds may sound ridiculous (or appalling) to you, but it's amounted to a full-scale revolution to me. And like any other revolutionary action aimed at bringing down a tyrant, my personal revolution has generated way more than its share of impassioned and seemingly semi-delusional rhetoric, along with more counter-revolutionary zeal, palace intrigue, and false feints to the center than I could ever manage to count, explain, or even shake a good, hard, stiff dick at.

But I’ll find a way to patch together all that weird intellectualism, whatever it means, by and by. For now, I simply want to lay claim to my new screen name, Jamie7, and rededicate myself to the telling of the story of my sexual “awakening” in middle-age to a deep truth that I'd never assimilated or understood until now: I’m a queer, a homo, a fag.

I’m a cocksucker, a peter puffer, and pole smoker, and I have been exactly that—and neither more nor less, aside from my unconsciousness of my own history and my disassociation from the true nature of my sexual orientation—since I was a toddler, at least, and maybe even an infant.

If all this sounds sad, horrible, or horribly sad to any kindred souls and readers, I’d better interject an ejaculation—or ejaculate a seminal assertion: Don’t feel sorry for me. I’m thrilled to be who I am, who I was, and who I always will be: A lover of men. A homosexual.

Or, as the condition is increasingly known and understood in this brave, new, uncloseted world: A gay man. (Or, at least, a cocksucker. And what could be better than that?)

Dude! Far fucking out!!!

Hi, All!

2008-07-02T09:09:00.000-07:00

There's so much I want and need to say about the changes I've put myself through over the past 5 years

Qweer1

Mea Gulpa, Mea Gulpa, Mea Maximum Gulpa

Hi, All!